Thinking......

It's been long time, long long time ! Yeah, November 21st my last post. 5 months have passed, I haven't written anything. I am no writing buff though but still, Barbie reminded me to continue my blog which i found out to be a good idea for a time pass.

Its April, which used to be a very pleasant weather but its freaking 41c here ! This unwelcome guest sure is not gonna spare us this year(and years after, who knows !). Ok I am not talking about weather here. My semester exams just ended, which gives me few days unemployment which is the worst thing coz it ruins me like anything ! Just taking some time out and writing this.

Things have been good so far this year with a major WTF scenes and some minor ones. No use going over them again and again because that gives me big time headache. When bad things happen, the best thing about them is that it makes you stronger and teaches you someything. That major WTF thing tested my relationship. I have to say it effected it BIG TIME ! We are still sort of getting over it but I really don't know whats going on here. I mean this is not a thing which happens everyday to you or your friends. We need some time now after what all has happened. Think about it, look around giving time to each other. I am sure with time there will be a good solution for us. But till then you should remember that you are the one for me :).

Other things which bother me now is Ranchi. This has turned out be even a bigger shitter place then i thought. I just so hate to stay here till my graduation ! No ways. And also chances are that my 2 of the best friends are gonna shift too. Naina this year and Barbie next. That would be disaster. I will have to do something about it. Serious.

Where are you ?

A hundred days have made me older
Since the last time that I saw your pretty face
A thousand lies have made me colder
And I don't think I can look at this the same
But all the miles that separate
Disappear now when I'm dreaming of your face

I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time

I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight it's only you and me............

Post my first post.

Well the last post came when i wasn't very well. I had a li'l fever, was uneasy and couldn't sleep. And reading that post added to the assault. Now I am writing this one while talking to her. She haven't gone through my blog yet. She doesn't knows anything about it. God knows whats gonna be her reaction ! She will most probably go through it today. God forbid she hates it.

Waiting for ur reaction baby. Just be true.

High Expectations for what dear ?

I am starting my blog quoting lines from the blog of the Angel I love the most.
" Have I ever been loved to such an extent? Do YOU love me this way? Am I as special as the gal, to you? You always say, " I love you a lot. I just don't show. " What does that mean? "
Yup, so My Barbie( The Angel ) read a blog. A guy wrote many wonderful things about his Girlfriend. That touched her(Barbie). THEN a thought struck her ! She asked herself , " Have she ever been loved so much ?" ! Took just half an hours reading to think such big ! Not ordinary ! I don't know about her past how she was loved but i know about the present. She is not being loved by words. People say, "Express ur Love, express ur love" , i know 've heard. But it ought to be unconditional. Still I try to do whatever i can. Now i can't do things which don't cross my mind.

I read her post(High expectations) just about an hour back. She had 'sparkled' it yesterday. I'd written her an testo yeasterday. There came a post today, "She knew she is lucky". A testo can make such a difference. People in relationship should converse through testos no doubt. I can't get the point that if she loves writing and all this stuff why does she expects me to do the same for her ? Still if she wants me to write blogs and testos and poems etc anything i have no problem.Anything for my girl. Anything.

Understand. Its not about expressing my Love or anything. This is just how I am. I'll try. I 'll try. Whatever she says, I'll do. Coz she says 'I Love You too'.
I want her to read her post from my behalf.


This is the starting of my blog. Dont mind if you are half-slept by now :) ..G'nite.

This post dedicated to My Barbie.